So being back home is making me realize how much I miss my old friends, for however badly they treated me at the end. I needed a late night in her basement reading Tarot cards, sharing our poetry (and confessions that would have ruined any other friendship), and watching fucked up awesome movies like Quills. I also had to pass my love's house today...and I seethed a bit, earning me a "What's the matter NOW??????????????????????????" from my dear mother.

What's the matter? A beautiful, gorgeous, yet fiercely off-putting freckled blonde who I've obsessed over for years lives there. One who could be my rapist as easily as my lover...and I'll never really know which role she wanted or took. One who broke my heart, and whose heart I had to break not too long ago. I reserve my right to sigh when I pass her house.

In better news, I'm missing a girl back in Minnesota. Me, missing someone gay and single...and not a stupid bitch (to my knowledge)? What is HAPPENING????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

Oh wellskys.